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Friday, July 08, 2005

Mab's gone.

Hey one day write two posts cos i wanted to update another issue that just happened on 6 July 2005. I've a best friend that I knew since kindergarden, then we went to CHIJ Kellock primary together, and even though we were in different sec sch, hers being St Theresa's Convent and mine being Nan Chiau then Monk's Hill sec, we kept in contact here and there and updated on each other's lives often. She knew the main gist of my life, it doesnt really matter on the non-important stuff, but I knew her presence in my life made me who I am today, the Regina who is ever so bitchy and cheerful and crazy. Yeap, it is all thanks to my best friends in my life like Mabx and Tracy who contributed to my character being revealed from myself.

Mabz gone to Adelaide for a degree in Chem Engineering and she'll be gone for like 2 and half years. I know shes intending to stay longer so that she can work there and gain experience and lots of Singapore companies dig exposure from overseas graduates. It will do her good to get the PR Status as a citizen there so when shes old or wad can settle there too hiakz. lucky her, she get to see the other half of the world independently and i know she jolly well takes good care of herself for sure. Somehow when i knew shes leaving, I had to be glad for her cos shes going to complete her studies and of course whatever our friends do we must support mah. Its a sad thing for me and for her even though she knows in life we cannot haf the best of both worlds, that she has to sacrifice the love she has been blessed with in singapore from her frens and family.

Mabz has been in my life for so many decades long, when i sent her off at the airport, after she was gone, her family was gone, i was wif the remaining IJ peeps that I used to know and now have kept back in contact, I realised that the remaining peeps has got a clique, a bunch of others who will support them still, but the frenship between mabx and me is a single 1 to 1 kind, the sort where we can only open up truly when we are facing each other and talking abt our life to the honest detail. I felt like a part of me went with Mabz to Aussie. I held back my tears after I hugged her good bye, knowing that she'll be back in a year later will suffice the loss of a dear soulmate in my life. she made us all (the IJ peeps who were the closest frens she had all her life) not to cry else she would and it will give her a harder time to leave. I tahan until canot tahan after she disappeared behind the customs and the baggage check into the deep deep part of the departure hall then i had to start tearing. the IJ peeps were really sweet to me, hugging me and letting me know that I still have them and other frens who will also be supportive and listening to me whenever I need them. But it's a different matter here to have a dear fren who's almost like a sister to me to have listened and understood all that I've to say even with my mouth full of food she can geddit lor.

The next day I woke up, I also felt the same. "Something's Missing" I thought, and felt mopey. thank god that mabx gave a ring later at nite, and she also confessed that she cried the whole journey on the plane to aus. hah... the phone call ended with a twinge of sadness, but i know that when both our sch starts, we'll probably be too busy to feel the whole crappy shit again, and we'll be in the whole junkload of emails swamping with tiny exciting details about our respective lives.

My circle of friends used to be a lot larger, but over the years, many just dropped out from being contacted, or we got so busy we forgot to contact each other. But what matters most is those who will faithfully make an effort to keep this friendship going, and that is what I call true friends who will stand with you till the end of time.

Reg is a reader.
3:14 PM

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