Sunday, November 12, 2006
21st year of my life is creeping up in 6 hours time...
So last year I read what I wrote on the 12th of November.
I normally do it one day before, on the review of the 364 days I spent.
Its a special day tomorrow.
I'm finally turning old, reaching upon the legal age to watch RA and to go Changi Prison if I were to commit a serious offence.
I don't like the thought of becoming older. The responsibilities that come with it.
I remember when I was young I wished and prayed and can't wait to get older.
And now I wish time would just stopped. Oddly, when you finally reached the rightful age to do anything you want, you just didn't enjoyed it.
I'm alright, excited, and hopeful that I could spend the next 365 days being a better person, a happier girl, and to overcome the turbulence in my life.
Last year, my aims were these:
1) get at least a pass for all modules taken for sem 1 and sem 2 and sem 3 in nus.
2) if can pass, get at least a cap score of 3.0 and above.
3) be able to hug a large and gigantic minnie mouse the size of my bolster to slp.
4) be happy.
5) most importantly, be healthy. everyone around me should all be in the pink of health.
1) I manage passes.
2) Failed to reach 3.0, which is okay since I'm in 3 yr degree now.
3) din get a large gigantic mouse.
4) Still feel contented.
5) Healthy is everyone. And I am okay I guess.
Though some were not achieved, I wasn't disappointed with myself. I notice the changes in myself, I guess I did grow up a little, and yeah this is good enough because its high time to be wise and make the right decisions, no more baby-ing reggie..
And this year my aims will be the same as last year's, somehow somewhat,
1) Pass everything in sem 4, sem 5, sem 6 (eh i dun even know how many sems i have to go)
2) heck the cap score as long as it doesn't fall to 2.0
3) decide and I mean decide properly what I really want in my life.
4) feel blessed and happy.
5) Everyone around me(family,friends,relatives) to be in the pink of health.
I know my 20th year wasn't spent in the bed of roses... But I still got on fine right? So, maybe now im still in the bads, but I'm sure I will see the goods of my life soon too!
Wish me all the best in the projects to meet and the exams on 27th Nov to 4th Dec.
Happy 21st Birthday Dear Regina. You will be the pride of yourself.
I love all of you people who played a great part in my life! :) -- Reg
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
message to the body and soul
Dear Brain,
pls function even when you're half asleep. pls remember wad i read in my textbooks, notes, and whatever i listen in lectures. pls cook up different ways of solving a maths problem and different ways of solving programming errors and ways to write a damn code. pls have the mindset on which page to copy even when i am doing open book exams.
Dear Heart,
pls give me the mood to study. give me the mood to do coding and projects. pls minus away the mood for tv and youtube. pls make me love books, pls make me like programming.
Dear Mind,
pls make me less depressed. make me hopeful. make me feel encouraged. make me less lazy. make me happier. pls let me feel as though wadever i am doing is right, let me feel less stressed, and let me feel less moody about failing in school badly.
Dear Legs,
pls continue to stay slim. No time to run at all.
Dear Body,
pls continue to stay slim. No time to exercise u at all.
Dear Soul,
I'm not being myself anymore. If I am not being myself, just leave me. The death of me makes me happier now.
I'm soooo over school. Arghhhhh. Sooooo sian I feel affected with bad grades. So unlike me when im in sec sch and poly. I tink going to a lousy sch helps a whole lot. I bet the majority of population suffering from depression and setbacks are mainly people from good schools.
I blame myself. for it all. for wadever i've done. i nid to quit tis life. it all ends on 4th dec. if im dead before that, GREAT!
6:12 PM