Thursday, July 14, 2005
Pre-graduation nerves (NP)
today's gonna be the day I offically graduate as a diploma holder! YAY!
this would mean I can find a job that pays a hell lot more better.
and this would mean I'm not stupid! I can actually get through poly education!
just thinking back when I was having O levels... I couldn't even manage to achieve the average score to get a nursing course in poly... Cause I was aiming for nursing when i was a hell lot younger.. Imagine doing the grossest things but all I wanted to do was to help the ill and sick peeps... Haiya, but my L1R4 in the past was like 30! its rubbish! So when I got my O's results officially, I was double checking to see if my name was spelt correctly, cos i just dun believe I can get 19pts lor! Actually I don't mind going back to nursing until i realise i didn't haf the guts to look at blood gushing out from anywhere except my own pubic region cos im so fucking used to it. haha! and my family members were discouraging me cos they tink its a shitty job imagine having to wipe pple's assholes and all... aiyahh! its all abt how much u care for pple and how gutsy u r lah! sad but true, my scores were like neither here nor there cos i cant even go to the biz courses that i wanted all along, and i left wif IT and engineering and nursing only lor. engineering is pure physics and pure maths to me lah, so i hate it to the core, and i also reminded myself that i must be a office lady nxt time! i dun wanna sweat under the sun! so ya, no choice i chose IT which seem like a rather better choice in my mind than the rest lor... i was tinking joining IT would be more like learning how to chat on IRC with a hell lot more knowledge. but I was wrong lah.
anyway, time just flies and flies and flies so bloody fast and now im on the route to say byebye to np. hah. paul was complaining that ever since we turn 16, everythin in our life just went by in a flash, the earth seems to be spinning faster eh don't u tink? wadever it is, im glad in np i found the course that i have interest in or rather, a course that i can tahan in!
if NP could change their way of graduating, i would suggest this.
1) allow students to wear frilly and sweet dresses to graduation. i dun understand why we haf to wear and look so mature and serious when in real fact i still sprout laughter and vulgarities at my frens. hah. my family said i look like a lawyer. gee! i feel like an old maid in a blazer. stiff and domineering. hmm. pictures later. for men i guess they are happi wif anythin they put on so long they cover their private parts. hah!
2) allow our family members to come without having a limited quota. who cares abt invitation cards? we can lug out family to set up portable seats to cheer us on when we go up to the stage! haha! now i am in a fucking dilemma on who is to go for my ceremony later. i reli duno. i have not even decided who is going. choice is between mom, dad and grandma. only 2 can go. fuck that.
3) oh and dun forget, whoever spread the rumor that graduands that are gals must wear covered shoes wif heels! ok that would mean court shoes. why cant we wear open toe sandals? mind u, i painted my toe nails so im soooo gonna show them off! pff! i dun care i am gonna wear open toe heels later. hee. why are we dressing up only to cover our damn toes? even the muslims dun cover their toes lor! actually as for muslims i tink they can wear their tudungs and national costumes lah. so yeah thats good of np ah.
hmm i preach all of u to give me my best wishes. pray the following:
1) may regina not fall on the steps to receiving her cert.
2) may regina not slip and fall on the stage while walking towards the certificate presenter.
3) may regina not burp out loud while saying "Thank u" to the presenter.
4) may regina not have a bad hair day or full of zits on face day while taking pictures wif her pals and family.
5) may regina not break her heels while going up the stage to receive her cert.
6) may regina's skirt, blazer not break or burst when shes walking to the presenter.
7) may the terrorist change their minds abt bombing np convention centre. its a day of happiness!
Amen. Thank you Gods of all religions above for your blessings.
updates abt graduation ceremony coming up later. stay tuned!
Friday, July 08, 2005
Mab's gone.
Hey one day write two posts cos i wanted to update another issue that just happened on 6 July 2005. I've a best friend that I knew since kindergarden, then we went to CHIJ Kellock primary together, and even though we were in different sec sch, hers being St Theresa's Convent and mine being Nan Chiau then Monk's Hill sec, we kept in contact here and there and updated on each other's lives often. She knew the main gist of my life, it doesnt really matter on the non-important stuff, but I knew her presence in my life made me who I am today, the Regina who is ever so bitchy and cheerful and crazy. Yeap, it is all thanks to my best friends in my life like Mabx and Tracy who contributed to my character being revealed from myself.
Mabz gone to Adelaide for a degree in Chem Engineering and she'll be gone for like 2 and half years. I know shes intending to stay longer so that she can work there and gain experience and lots of Singapore companies dig exposure from overseas graduates. It will do her good to get the PR Status as a citizen there so when shes old or wad can settle there too hiakz. lucky her, she get to see the other half of the world independently and i know she jolly well takes good care of herself for sure. Somehow when i knew shes leaving, I had to be glad for her cos shes going to complete her studies and of course whatever our friends do we must support mah. Its a sad thing for me and for her even though she knows in life we cannot haf the best of both worlds, that she has to sacrifice the love she has been blessed with in singapore from her frens and family.
Mabz has been in my life for so many decades long, when i sent her off at the airport, after she was gone, her family was gone, i was wif the remaining IJ peeps that I used to know and now have kept back in contact, I realised that the remaining peeps has got a clique, a bunch of others who will support them still, but the frenship between mabx and me is a single 1 to 1 kind, the sort where we can only open up truly when we are facing each other and talking abt our life to the honest detail. I felt like a part of me went with Mabz to Aussie. I held back my tears after I hugged her good bye, knowing that she'll be back in a year later will suffice the loss of a dear soulmate in my life. she made us all (the IJ peeps who were the closest frens she had all her life) not to cry else she would and it will give her a harder time to leave. I tahan until canot tahan after she disappeared behind the customs and the baggage check into the deep deep part of the departure hall then i had to start tearing. the IJ peeps were really sweet to me, hugging me and letting me know that I still have them and other frens who will also be supportive and listening to me whenever I need them. But it's a different matter here to have a dear fren who's almost like a sister to me to have listened and understood all that I've to say even with my mouth full of food she can geddit lor.
The next day I woke up, I also felt the same. "Something's Missing" I thought, and felt mopey. thank god that mabx gave a ring later at nite, and she also confessed that she cried the whole journey on the plane to aus. hah... the phone call ended with a twinge of sadness, but i know that when both our sch starts, we'll probably be too busy to feel the whole crappy shit again, and we'll be in the whole junkload of emails swamping with tiny exciting details about our respective lives.
My circle of friends used to be a lot larger, but over the years, many just dropped out from being contacted, or we got so busy we forgot to contact each other. But what matters most is those who will faithfully make an effort to keep this friendship going, and that is what I call true friends who will stand with you till the end of time.
Heyyy strangers!
Heyyy peeps!
I'm back from my hiatus. My laptop survives every crash. What a brave hero it is. haha. But the damn company repaired my com, washed away EVEN MY D DRIVE data! I'm now left with only C Drive and its a bigggggg C drive I would say. Haiz. I'm so sad for the loss. It washed away all the research I've done on drama series, and even the drama series I've download. But a fresh clean com means a new start to the Internet World, and I've resolved not to download any more crap into it. Note: my warranty ends this august. I can't afford to spoil my com one more time else it will mean $300 gone from my bank account k!
While I was away, I didn't waste a lot of time at home. Because being at home would mean I can only look at the com, and look at the tv, and read books. Wah lao can die rite? So I did some outdoorsy thingie like killing time at Paul's house at least I've company there, do a little walking around IKEA lookin for their furniture, and I realised that the life living out of a box (eg, in this case it would mean my com and tv is like a box) is a hell lot more fun and interesting.
I also met up Mabx, as she's leaving Singapore like very soon, so I spend the last wk with her baking cookies, muffins... oh man. the cookies went rock hard like granite and had to be put into milo for 10mins before they are softer to be eaten, and the muffins were bloody good. everyone said our muffins were of cake shop standard okayyy. Haii. and we went for chocolate buffet at Fullerton hotel. Gee whee, it was like injecting ourselves with endorphins over and over again lidat. We were just curious about the fountain that vomits chocolate so when we got there we were like "cheyy so small onli the fountain" hahaha but at least we gt to try out many many many types of chocolate even orangey taste kind and coconut pattern kind. i tell u ah, 6 star hotel got standard 1 leh their service is thumbs up. though it was rather disappointing cos the chocolate taste like can buy frm supermarket different types of it and we hardly ate that much cos its soo disgusting to have sweet stuff in our mouth most of the time, but we enjoyed the experience there. its truly an eye-opener as for our age ah we veri sua ku abt high class stuff. man, i love the ambience so much, paul and i will definately head back there for dinner (hey their dinner quite cheap lah not fucking fucking ex kind) but add service charge and GST and CESS ahh.. damn it sia can add additional 20 bucks to it lidat.
erm after which i spend some family time hanging out wif grandma and mom at her clinic and ate crystal jade dimsum and we also spent 7 hrs out visiting all places which has buddhists temples and pray like hell i bet God really can listen to me already ahhh since i repeat so much of my prayers i felt like i can dream abt those words over and over again. haha. u see wad i mean anot peeps. there's a hell lot more u can do out of internet and out of home. so dun hide ur head in the hse in the pillow and go out and experience more man. i swear i encounter some stuff that made me mad outside but i cant remember alr. haha i shuld take down bits and pieces of notes in my book so i can relate to u all more. hmm i had alot of fun without my com now its july its closing to the end of my long bloodi fucking long long break and im so upset because its gonna be august when i start sch again i will feel like im nursing a hangover. sigh...
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