The Reader
Regina. Can't wait to step into the real society. Hates life to be in an orderly manner. Adores human interaction. 21 going on 22 this year. Third year in "ANUS minus A" - "KoM-Pu-Tin".
Adores
Reading chick literati books, watching dramas whichever and whatever and wherever the source is from, singing and listening to every genre of music, satisfying my stomach with good food, catching good movies, working out every cell available in her body.
Things I'd Like
Good grades
Healthy life
Money
Peace and harmony
Sunday, March 26, 2006
The sudden jolt - the realisation.
I felt the need to vent the intense amount of sickening bunch of unsightly shit all gathered in my head...
Just jolted awake suddenly. just felt that im not doing wad i have interest at all. i feel like its holiday now because everytime i attempt to do anything related to IT i will just feel like dragging it on and on pretending that im doing but if theres something else to do i will just drop it and run off. I can do marketing plans, i can do powerpoint slides related to business. I feel the urge i feel the joy and the immense importance in them. i just dun feel anything for computers - be it in programming, be it in maths. i tried to recall why i chose computing as my first choice. its a bad mistake. it was all the desperation needed to be in a local uni that made me choose wad i thought and assume i did best in. why didn't i consider interest in my factor?
i looked at frens especially diane and tracy who are pursuing courses that are what they always wanted to do. they realised their mistake earlier than i did- learning is not all on trying your best. though hard work plays a tiny effort, but gee how much r u willing u put in when u especially hate this subject now? i abhore u operating systems. i abhore the fact that i have to copy and beg tutorial answers from people every wk, i hate to pretend that i am able to do the assignment or even try the darnest best to listen to a lecturer yabbering ingenious facts abt making multiple processes, page systems. i dun hate wad the school has did. i hate wad i am going through.
2 semesters and 5 assignments and 5 exams to go reggie. im getting out of this mental torture before i snap and i might just ask for a withdrawl out of sch.
dun push me.
6:29 PM