Monday, April 25, 2005
Families only come when...
Some earthshocking bad news happened in my family recently. Grandma's side u see.
I always regard the family tree as something very hard to comprehend and would take awhile for me to adjust to how i should address people. anyway, its like...
Grandma's Sis --> gave birth --> Baby Girl --> married --> Husband passed away. It's due to the sudden stop in breathing while he slp. He has a narrow nose since a car accident 12 years ago and his breathing capabilities are impaired while slping. It's just not expected that he can passed away all of a sudden at the young age of 43. He leaves behind a loving wife, and 3 young children (Age 16, 10, and 5).
With children so young, wife has never worked before since they were married and she's left with a sudden shock that she have to shoulder the entire household. It's really really sad. I'm upset I felt like crying lah. Though I only meet them every year for Chinese New Year, I can't help but feel he's a nice nice guy who is patient and kind to his children and even to elderly.
Grandma and mom went to funeral and related that almost my whole family, including my aunts(bro's sisters who are married) also went to it. I was pretty surprised because extended family seldom does such stuff. And come to think of it, yes, my family meets everyone and everyone else with the surname Lim only when there are joyous occasions or big time calamity that happens to our family. On ordinary days, I remember that my aunt seldom rings my grandma up to check if she's fine and all. Sigh, my family has never had a sense of closeness with the other sibs of my grandma, only when the important events strike. It only plagues me with doubt and loneliness to know I have to face the future all by myself, that I may be lose touch with my cousins when I am old and all. But then again, I rejoice at the fact that no matter how busy the other relatives are, when we need each other in times of solace and how destitue we can get, we are comforted to know that we still have relatives among us who cares.
Watched a hongkong drama there's this guy who ask the girl what kinda animals she will pick to be with her during her trip out of the jungle, subsequently u decide to choose the first animal to the last which u are most unwilling to let go off. Cow, Tiger, Sheep, Horse, Monkey. i tink they represent something in life like career, love, family, money, and pride. How we prioritise our issues in life has a lot to do with the choice we make from the top to the bottom lah.
For me, I would choose Tiger, Monkey, Horse, Sheep, Cow.
It means, I will choose to let go of my pride, let go of money next, let go of my family, let go of my love, then i let go of my career.
Quite bad leh me. I dun foresee myself as a career women in the first place.
Tell me what you peeps will choose!
11:53 AM